Dear Penny: Happy 4th birthday!

Dear Penny,

I am so incredibly proud of you. I really wish I had another word to use because it just doesn’t seem enough to express how you make me feel. You have had such an exciting year. You’re so affectionate right now and it makes me feel so loved by you. Thank you for all the cuddles and the morning kisses to wake me up. I hope you never stop doing that. I love stretching together before we get out of bed. You are so curious on the whys and whats. I love answering your questions and seeing how you instantly remember the answers. Your mind makes me so excited for the future and I just know that you will always help me see the beauty in the little things. Seeing you figure things out on your own makes me so happy. You refuse to accept help because you want to do things on your own. I hope you always remember that I will always be here to help you figure things out though. Anything, big or small. I’m glad we are learning how to communicate better and I hope you feel the same. Our relationship is one I never thought I would have and I’m so grateful we get to navigate this relationship together. You are so strongwilled, Penny and you have such a big heart. Happy birthday my sweet girl. You continue to be my greatest adventure. Thank you for choosing me. Thank you for teaching me. Most of all thank you for showing me how to appreciate all the little things in life. I’m with you always.

I love you!

Mom

This was Three: Things I want to remember

I just read my post I wrote last year about what I wanted to remember before Penny turned 3. And WOW! So much has changed and I didn’t really realize how much can happen in a year. Here I am planning another birthday party and thinking about age 3. Hand to heart, two was definitely more challenging than three. Not that three was a walk in the park but so much was different this past year. We had more support from family, Penny’s communication skills got so much better, I started working, Ben’s work schedule was more flexible. So much contributed to this past year and I’m so incredibly grateful for it! And the cherry on top of it all, my sweet girl is happy, healthy and so full of life! So here are a few things I want to remember…

Penny is 100% potty trained! Woohoo!

She has branched out of Sofia the First! THANK YOU UNIVERSE! She has so many other favorites now like Moana, COCO, Frozen, Spider-Man, Incredibles, PJ masks.

She can count to 30, knows all her colors, shapes and body parts.

She is so independent and only asks for help when she really needs it.

She loves figuring things out like opening and twisting things. She also yells “my finger!” If it’s difficult to figure out.

She loves cooking with me! She adds ingredients, beats her own eggs, stirs her oatmeal and even got her first burn thanks to a really hot cast iron.

She is still such a good little eater with a big appetite!

She’s observant. She knows when I don’t feel well and if I get hurt she immediately gives me a kiss.

She’s affectionate and so cuddly before bed!

She goes to sleep on her own without us.

She loves books and has memorized her bedtime stories.

She lets me do her hair every morning and immediately goes to the mirror to see it with a big smile on her face!

She is completely careless about technology aside from watching tv here and there. Still has no idea what mommy and daddy’s phone can do LOL

She loves music and knows the whole soundtrack to Frozen, Moana and Coco.

She’s so fast on her scooter!

She is so close to her grandma, great grandma, uncles, aunts and cousins! Asks for them constantly and loves being around them.

She know the names of all the kids in her class and loves going over them, writing their names and drawing their faces 😃

Penny’s vocabulary has tripled and we are able to understand each other so much better now!

Not a fan of sharing yet.

Penny started at a new school and takes the school bus to and from. After a month of making a run for it every time the bus came, she now loves it! And knows the names of most of the kids on the bus too.

Her memory amazes me. She takes me to friends houses we’ve never been to but remembers the way from the bus route.

She loves taking the bus and train but also puts her little NY legs to work.

She loves dressing herself. Currently pajamas are day outfits too LOL!

Loves nature. Loves rain, snow and water.

Swimming is her favorite.

She was a flower girl for my friends wedding and broke a vase during the ceremony.

She went through a phase where she wore 7 tiaras every day and brought her Sofia the First dolls with her everywhere!

She cleans her own plate after dinner and puts it in the sink.

She makes the biggest messes and cleans them up, NEVER, just like mama 😃

She is so smart and curious.

I’m so proud of all she has accomplished this year. Most of all I’m happy she’s happy. I feel confident she knows she’s loved and supported. I can’t wait to see all she will learn and explore this year!

This was three, four we are ready for you. I think!

xo,

Vee

Let’s chat: Why I started blogging!

A few weeks ago my blog turned one! It was exciting to look back on the last year and see how many connections I’ve been able to make in this community. Although I don’t blog as much as I would like to or even as much as I planned to when I first started, I am SO happy I have this space. It’s where I come to look back on my words, thoughts and memories. Where I vent and let my emotions out freely without a worry of judgment. I love having this little corner in cyber space where I can share or not share anything I want!

I wanted to write this blog post to share why I started blogging and one thing I realized was that reason has changed so much in the last year. It’s become different little reasons along the way but in all transparency it has become a safe place for my sanity as well as my dark moments. I come here to work through thoughts and in the end of my sometimes dark moments, I end up feeling incredibly grateful for the life I get to live.

Let’s start by backing it up about 17 years to a very troubled and depressed teenager. I have been in and out of therapy for the past 16 years through some of my darkest moments. From an unhappy childhood to anxiety and depression and sometimes harmful thoughts, I seeked help in hopes that one day I’d come out on the other side. Something I realized during therapy was my inability to pinpoint what was making me unhappy. Because of this I was encouraged to write. Write letters to people who hurt me. Write my thoughts when I felt sad. Write when I felt happy. Write on good days and on bad. The result was what helped me work through my emotions and eventually get off antidepressants. I won’t go deeper on this subject right now but may in the future! But this is when I realized how important writing was for my mental health.

Fast forward to being 27 years old, a new mom, and moving to a different time zone away from all of my immediate family. Let’s just say I went through an emotional rollercoaster during my daughters first year of life for so many reasons. Penny was 2 months old when we moved to Arizona and after a few weeks, the excitement of finally moving away from my birthplace wore off and I found myself extremely unhappy.

I do believe all these changes threw me into a state of postpartum depressed but because I didn’t seek professional counseling, I can’t say for sure. Since I have history with depression I knew I needed to talk about what was going through my mind, not suffer in silence and not let my thoughts fester in the pit of my stomach. If I wanted to work through my emotions like I’ve had to in the past, I had to talk to someone. During this time I had a sense of gratitude for knowing exactly who I needed to talk to. My husband. And hand to heart, he’s the reason I am able to feel confident in sharing this. He listened and never dismissed any of my feelings no matter how outrageous they might have sounded to say out loud. He encouraged my writing and to see if it will help me pinpoint the root of my sadness. So I did.

A few months later we moved back to NY and things started to change. I started to find joy in other things separate from my family. I started cooking and learning about my body’s needs from nutrition to mental health. I started seeing my friends more and having “me” time. I started taking care of myself again and spending time with my husband, just the two of us. We found our intimacy again after having Penny. Our communication flourished and have been able to find our relationship separate from being parents.

I came face to face with my joys and my triggers. And honestly I feel like I will always have to work on my emotional triggers. I also realized how satisfied I felt when I wrote and connected to others. I didn’t want to only turn to it when I felt I was in a dark place. So I started my blog to share my experiences and my thoughts but also my passion for food and overall wellness. It truly makes me happy to express myself through my blog. Grammatical errors and run on sentences included! And just the possibility that my words and experiences can resonate or make one single person out there feel understood, makes my heart feel so full!

So that is why I started my blog my friends. For you, for me, for us! Through the last year it’s been my outlet for different reasons and I might not have a particular niche I write about but I’m okay with that. Being able to share little bits of everything makes me happy. Thank you so much for being here!

Happy one year, The Sunday Biscotti!

Xo,

Vee

Penny’s 3rd Birthday Party!

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Penny’s birthday parties came and went! And I have to say these were the most effortlessly fun parties to date. We had a Sofia the First party at school with her classmates and surprised her with cupcakes and a big 3 balloon! She was not expecting it and had the sweetest reaction when everyone started singing happy birthday and realized the party was for her! Ha! The whole party was about 45 minutes and let me tell you it was perfectly sweet and simple. I never thought I’d say this but these 3 year olds were easily impressed! Continue reading “Penny’s 3rd Birthday Party!”

Dear Penny: Happy third birthday!

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Dear Penny,

Today you are three years old. I’ve said it before and I’ll tell you again and again until you’re old enough to fully grasp the infinite joy you have brought into my life. And even then I’ll still remind you just how special you are and how much your daddy and I love you. This last year was filled with firsts for all three of us. We took time getting to know each other in your new stage of discovery and exercising your own voice filled with thoughts and options. Continue reading “Dear Penny: Happy third birthday!”